Journal on a year after quitting
without another job or with a moving objective
Written at different times of the day over six months the thoughts in going through my mind
14th April, 2021 4:00 AM
What am I doing now, wasting my time over .. something. I really have no idea what I am reading, working, searching for, I am still at the same level. Everyday I am losing the salary, I would otherwise have earned. I do not have a home yet. I am becoming 25. What will become of me.
16th April, 2021 2:00 AM
What is happening. What will be there. I have nothing to do. I have no fixed things like home or so.
26th April, 2021 6:00 PM
I have no objective. Life is empty for me.
3rd May, 2021 11:00 PM
I will be moving to my home village. What will happen to my work, what is going to happen about how I earn. I cannot take money from parents for a long time. Can I get a job, if yes when - this month, next month or after 6 months. What If I do not get any job?. Each day I am spending idle, I am losing earning that I would have If I had not resigned. :(
27th June, 2021 9:00 PM
I had quarrel with my brother, now I am feeling like why did I quit my job. Now, I am dependent. They are accusing me of causing some kind of problems in their lives.
I would like to stay away from home. All the time since I quit my job, I felt helpless. :(
4th July, 2021 4:00 PM
Not working for money. I have spent years doing a lot of things in the end I have only a few thousand rupees (~15 USD) in my account.
21st July, 2021 10:00 AM
Got a phone call from a senior that there is an opportunity with a startup. I am waiting for it to happen. My mind is playing the possibility vividly. Relocation, work engagements, dress, travel.
I could not complete tasks such as my personal website, blog. I think like I need to make it a lot inspiring and contentful but I am all looking for shinier websites and doing nothing. Unable to find an objective today, could not focus on completing a mock test. impatience.
29th July, 2021 5:54 AM
I learned yesterday that my school classmate earns 6x / month. Why do I feel that people are determined than me. or other people are so determined and better compared to me.
31st July, 2021
A Linkedin post openly asks for the CTC of the last drawn salary. Don't they the value of the work the position would provide.
16th Aug, 2021
My I was not in the last job. The payment was fine and the progress would good enough in that field. But, I have taken a decision not to pursue that path. It's better to move on.
Take the present situation as a job (full-time) and see how you could build something.
8th Sep, 2021 3:00 PM
Seriously, I am doing nothing for 1.5 years! no money earned. No work done. Sleeping all the time.
9th Sep, 2021 12:41 PM
People doing Master's (Higher studies) at least they are doing something. I should have been in the last job.
6th Oct, 2021 2:00 PM
It is too difficult to get a salary of 60k and good tenure is very difficult in cities like Guntur, or AP. The local companies tend to be perverse, exploitative and direction can be limited.
21st Oct 2021 12:00 PM
Woke up after laying down on bed for around 4 hours. What am I doing, what is going to happen to my future. I couldn't do one thing right. Businesses does not look good nowadays. There is career gap.